i'm hanging on.

Wtf, kononnya sekolah yang terbaik.

First, I was unhappy because an assembly was held all of a sudden without notification. And we're asked to stand under the freaking, blazing hot sun! Whereas the little kids sit comfortably in the hall. Gee, "We donated money to build the hall one eh!"

Our KK cards were collected and we continued standing under the sun. I couldn't stand the heat anymore (was having worst headache) so, 'bravely' took out the umbrella. Not long after that, umbrellas started to open in the crowds of students. Should be a nice view from above nia.

So, there goes our kokurikulum day. There goes our games meeting. How funny.

Second, I am mad because the new PA system's speaker is only outside our classroom. They do not have a signal before they make an announcement through the speaker. You have no idea how loud the sound is. Fucking sound pollution man!

"Test, test, 1, 2, 3..." They sounded like little kids fooling around with the mike. Damn it, how many times do they need to have the testings? And, the national anthem and state song just wouldn't stop playing. The sound vibrations are so damn strong. Whereas the teachers' sound are like totally muted.

Kwok Seong told me that there's going to be an extremely big project in our school in the near future. They're demolishing all the blocks except for Block G. Replacing them is 3 blocks at the field with 9 floors each., forming a triangle shape. Obviously there're lifts. But I don't understand why students are not allowed to use them! The multipurpose-hall will be break down into parts and rebuild again behind Block G or somewhere around there I think. Replacing that is a mini stadium!

Yes, a lot of work. A lot of money. A lot of time. I doubt even when my sister had graduated, the project isn't finished yet! But definitely our badge wouldn't be the one enjoying this kind of high class facilities.

And one saddening thing is, which I'm absolutely positively sure - the trees are going to be cut down. *cries* Should have carved all of them! Damn, lol.

Besides, today was the first audition for Sentosa Idol. All of the teams from our class succeeded to proceed to the next audition! I repeat, ALL! Waw.

And my mind wouldn't stop rewinding my first experience of joining Sentosa Idol with Hairul. Rewinding back to the night he called and asked me to join him. Rewinding back when we had our totally awkward first practice - Way Back Into Love. Rewinding back when we unbelievably made it through the first audition. Rewinding back to the great Wednesday when we practice for our second audition, especially the scene when we got so high and stood on the table to sing! Oh my, there're still so clear in my mind.

It was really fun! Glad to have that memory in my life, hon.

I miss you, Hairul. I've been counting, it had been 72 days since I saw you. When will we meet again?

Kristy, are you doing okay?

My title has nothing to do with my post.

So for the first time ever I wore the koperasi tie to school. One word, weird. Repeat again, weird. And again, weird. Yes for the truth I hate wearing tie, but can’t do anything. Hoping the badges can be designed faster and the uniform comes in faster! Ugh.

Lots of stuff during assembly today. Won the prize for the keceriaan competition, only a key chain (puan ooi gave me one last year) and 10 ringgit. In the end, we decided to donate the 10 ringgit for the needy kids. The ones that successfully got into the final of Sentosa Idol were announced too. Only one form 3 in solos and none in groups. Oh well, don’t be sad! There’s always a next time, people. (I’m trying to comfort myself only, duh) Not to forget, congratulation to the lucky ones yo! Especially jolynn, hehe.

Nothing much during class. During science period, cik shariza found out that zhao xuan did not bring his sps. Teacher pinched his stomach and made a lot of ‘those painful sound’. Clement laughed so loudly beside and said it sounded like doing sex, and then got pinched also. HAHAHA! She told us that once, when she bring her students to watch the video for chapter 4, reproduction, one of the student asked, “Teacher, why don’t have the s-e-x process one?” “Teacher, at home I got a lot, you want or not?” “Which country you want?” “I got Japan, Thailand, China, America…” lmao. While encik ong told us a lot about the sickness he’s having, oh poor old man. (pity, pity lah)

We kept on comparing our skins too. Omg, I just realized I became really, really dark man. Even yen theng is fairer than me, ahh! (no offence yah!) Alright fine then, black is hot right? Laugh-out-loud. xiang ting and I wondered that how will tze woh looked like because he is already really dark. How dark will he became now? (I’m sorry, I don’t mean anything bad!) And we also kept on talking about the desa water park celebration. I heard from the others that, this isn’t the jamuan. The official one is not held yet. Omg, omg. Are we green house that rich? :D

Besides that, saw ee ring teaching the sport perfects dancing for the teachers’ day performance. So damn alike with our cheering. And suddenly I felt like joining in. Aww, I miss those days. Oh well, skip skip skip. And that’s the end of the day.

Life is a maze, and love is a riddle. – The Show, Lenka.

p/s: sorry for being so wordy again, I just couldn't help it! laah.

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Took a quiz in facebook.

What do your eyes say? Deep thinker.
You think deeply about things going on in the present, past, and sometimes even future. You often drift off during work or class and start thinking about other things. You always hide what your thoughts form your friends and it often takes a poke or a snap of the fingers to bring you back to reality. Your eyes often portray a different personality than you are. Your eyes are a different part of your soul.

so true uh.

keep the faith.

Current mood: disappointed, depressed, sad, unhappy, cry-out-loud, no words can describe.

Yes, good luck intended to avoid me. The second audition did not went really well and I don’t think we’re gonna make it to the final. The results will be announced next week. And then, tambahan pula I saw the wrong thing at the wrong time. So, I am really dead now.

幸福，是自己争取的. 失败后，我不争取了. 所以，幸福没有了. (I have no idea what on earth am I talking about)

Hopefully tomorrow’s PRS Kursus Asas will be alright. Hopefully tomorrow’s Green House Jamuan can cheer me up. Hopefully, things weren’t as bad as I thought. Just hope and hope.

Oh, oh, oh my god.

Science was really interesting today. We talked about fertilization and pregnancy. Teacher explained about how painful the process it is. She said ‘making’ a human is not that easy. Sex is painful (sort of, for the first time I guess) 9 months of fertilization is painful (just like carrying a 3 kg of flour on your abdomen) and in the end, giving birth is the most painful thing in the world. Seems like very painful yeah? Lot of girls whispered around, “omg, so scary one. Next time I don’t wanna have children already.” “oh my god, very painful lah. I wanna be a nun already.” Etc, etc.

Besides that teacher also talked about those mothers who don’t want their children. She said in Malaysia it’s illegal for doing that kind of surgery (kind of like killing a baby honestly) but some of the clinic still does that to earn money. But, it hurt a lot and sometimes your life may also be sacrifice. They use a metal rod with sharp and pointy ends, pushed it into the vagina and then clutch on the baby and pulled it out! Can you imagine that? It’s gonna be real pain and don’t need to say blood will be spilling out like shit. And the baby 3-4 weeks old with eyes and nose is just threw away like that, in the drain or in the dustbin. Omg, omg. I don’t dare to imagine that, I really don’t. How on earth someone can be so cruel and evil? Baby have life too, their heart beats too.

It was too scary to be continued, but then I suddenly added something even more disgusting. I told teacher that I received before an email that doctors in Japan actually eats baby which are dumped by their mothers! 3 to 4 months old baby, their heads, hands and legs are cut and then ate by the doctors, raw! Omg, omg. I still remember the damn awfully disgusting picture I saw on that email. Kar yee added too that people in China eats baby for beauty too. Teacher added some more that she received before an email that nowadays a lot of woman that wants their skin to look excellent they actually put semen on their face or drink the whole thing up. Omfg, I couldn’t believe that. Beauty is really that important huh?

We stopped talking about that and moved on to another topic. This time it sounded better. Teacher told us a few interesting facts. Babies which are born earlier than they are suppose to be like 7 months old are really clever but then they’re weak and have lesser antibodies. (xiang ting and I turned to vivian that time) He-he, suits you a lot :P And then babies which are born with their legs come out first meant that they like to travel a lot. (which is me!) woah, that’s really true! Science is really an interesting subject isn’t it?

I’m so sorry for being so wordy nowadays. I just couldn’t help myself to stop typing words.

For the rest of the day, I was locked up in the internet room (pusat akses) doing koperasi stuffs. We finally got our ties, looks weird for girls because it’s brown in color. Oh well, I bet it will look fine when it matches with our uniform. And then I overheard jodie saying that I’ll be vice president or vice treasurer. Ooh, that’s cool. One of the computers has songs in it. And so, we turned the volume up loudly and do our stuffs sambil singing. Hehe, funnya.

Good Luck, please don’t intend to avoid me! (:

Oh I forgotten to say, I saw the crying and smiling moon and stars. But it’s only with one eye/star. Yer, fine lah I’ll just wait for another 50 years!

Yipee yipee yipee!

With all of friends' hope and wishes. Guess what? Az and me is going to the second audition! Hoooray. Grates to ihsan julia benjamin alena joanne han han ee ring wai sum and others for passing the first audition too! I shouldn't get too happy first, nightmares gonna happen from today onwards yo.

So here's what happened during the first audition I ever attended! :)

The bell rang. I skipped science extra class and went for practise. There's only 10minutes left till the audition starts! I was in 3A3 with az ihsan julia benjamin alena joanne charisa. I don't know about the others but I only knew I was panicking and was really afraid!

We went up to blok e highest floor and registered. Saw lots of friends practising in the waiting room too! I wouldn't stop wandering here and there wishing them good luck :D And then practise a lot with az too. I was so worried because my voice was too soft! And too bad my bffs weren't there supporting me! ):

Until 2pm we finally get to queue up behind alena and ihsan's group. I hugged joanne julia alena when they succeeded in the first audition. joanne was over-joyed! ihsan's group went in and then I heard them sang. I was so very very (x10) scare by that time. And then ihsan's group came out with happy face obviously we know what happened lah :D

az and my turn now. vice president teacher president of the seni, drama, tarian club was sitting in the middle of the classroom. FYI, it's 6R1, the poor abandoned class (where I used to practise cheering, aww I miss those time!) I whispered good morning teacher and then the president said, "You are from 3A7?" "yes." "You are from 3A12?" "yes." "Alright, you may begin." And so we sang. I didn't dare to look at the judges only at az.

"... way back into love ..." the song finished. The president said, "See you guys next week, very good." I was like omg omg, couldn't supress the joy and happiness in my heart! even though it's only the first audition lah :D az and I acted that gloomy and depressed look when we walked back to ihsan they all, ihsan asked, "har. Why?" And we bursted into laughter! HAHAHA.

Fine lah, I've spent almost half a day writing this post. Ciaoz! Oh I almost forgotten: Lye Zhang came to school today!