We can plan for a change in weather and time,"Hey, Regina you like surprise right?" Sherwyn said.
I never planned on you changing your mind. - Last Kiss, Taylor Swift.
My brain interpreted fast and I knew it would only meant one thing.
IT MUST BE. NO WAY. IMPOSSIBLE.
Split seconds later, from the corner of my eyes, I saw him. Him and the smile I've missed for a very long time.
"Hairul's here."
And I was on cloud nine.
I never thought that I would have the opportunity to meet him again. And that, was just completely bizarre. My mind went blank, and I try to calm myself down. Tried to breathe normally, as I walked towards him. I couldn't suppressed the joyous feeling inside me. Well, as always.
"Oh my god, I can't believe you're here. Oh my god." A smile lit up on his face. "It's been a long time." "Yeah, June. Or July." ...
Everything I've been avoiding from comes back to my mind once again. Still so fresh. So real. You have totally no idea how much am I struggling inside as we talked casually.
Being away for such a long time and with all the memories or just so anything that can trigger the old time feeling kept and hidden, I've almost forgot how he looks like. I've almost forgot that it was all true. And it's part of my beautiful memories. I've almost forgot how much I had loved him before, more than a human can possibly love someone.
Unable to sustain the conflict in the inner me, I said bye and left.
He walked to our tree. A place where I haven't been, for a really long time. A place where I have been avoiding from getting any near.
I didn't stop turning and looking and searching and finding for his shadow everywhere. I got emotional, then I ran and hid myself.
Did I cry? I don't remember. But I do remember the feeling of hot wet teardrops on my cheeks.
Pathetic, I know.
Unable to fight back the nostalgic feeling, I still headed back to that place, our tree. I looked at the carving made a year ago, it seemed to be fading away. It doesn't look the same to me anymore. All those promises made seemed to be a distant memory. I only took a slight glance, not more than 30 seconds, then I hurried away.
There's a part of me wanting so much to lay my eyes on him again. Where, another part, a stronger one held on, not allowing me to cross the boundaries or perhaps, just too afraid to?
At the end of the day, I didn't see him anymore. I was lost in my own thoughts.
"Hairul came back." I finally gathered up my courage to speak out to my Sweety. "Yeah I know I saw, so what did he say?" He examined my face closely and looked deep into my eyes. "Um. Nothing, nothing much." I replied, nonchalantly.
I presume, there's nothing much left to say too huh?
