Daylight

"When the daylight comes I'll have to go, but tonight I'm gonna hold you so close."

 

On replay mode: Daylight by Maroon 5

Yesterday night I actually typed out this more-than-1000-words blogpost, annual blog post, of where I look back on the year. But decided this isn't the best time to post it up. Because I just wasn't really feeling what I was writing. It felt too unreal, like I've been forced to pen down those words. I don't even know what I'm mindlessly, cluelessly talking about here.  

 

Christmas has never been so bad before.

 

I couldn't find words to say to make things, seemed a little cheerful and brighter for this supposedly merry happy season. I don't know how to - I just feel so empty, and have this stomach churning feeling deep inside. It's a bad feeling, very, very bad. Then again, I feel like I'm feeling nothing. No, I feel like I'm losing something, holding on dearly on whatever that's left.

 

So terrified.    

 

I don't know what's going on anymore. I don't know what to do. I don't know. I don't know.

 

...

 

I hope this would put a smile on your face, at least I did.

 

 

We look young. My goodness, this would most likely be our first photo ever taken.

Shot in SW4-2D, Ms Nicole's Mass Com Class.

 

This was the day we all went out with Ms Nicole to watch Dark Shadows! We were planning our seating arrangements properly to avoid sitting near/next to 'someone' and I was so pleased to be sitting right next to you.

Shot in Pizza Hut, Sunway Pyramid. 

 

 

This was sometime back, like really long back. Back we're 'just friends'. (Looking SO alike!)
Shot in the library.

 

 

The first time you ever took a picture kissing me on my cheeks. On a Friday, I think.

(I'm pretty amazed by my own bravery for letting you do so ha-ha)

Shot at the cafe.

 

 

Finals dinner celebration with Ms Nicole at Capricossa, Sunway Pyramid.

Shot by Cheryl, and it was one unexpected kiss from you. Before I left, I surprised you with the very first kiss on your cheek too. Heh

 

One night before Sunway Lagoon trip, I switched off all the lights in my room. Dashed to the toilet, brushed my teeth in front of the camera. All in attempt to skype longer with you.

And you sneakily took this shot!

 

 

One of my favourite picture of ours, you piggy back me at Sunway Lagoon! The same night where you nearly .. nearly kissed me. Ha.

 

 

First semester break for 9 days started and you're back in Penang. Both of us with new hair cut! And was enjoying the silence, and kept smiling at each other through the screen. Aah.

 

 

And we both wore pyjamas while skyping, when you were in Ipoh. I was so tempted to take this screen shot because you were grinning so giddily and happily :)

 

 

Loved this so much that I set it as my homescreen wallpaper, sliding them left and right, seeing you, me, and us. It was during FIA Charity Day!
A random candid shot.

 

 

Our first polaroid picture, which we wanted to take so badly since our Moral Fun Fair Day.  Still keeping the other two in my purse. And we shoved ice into each others' backs! 

Shot by Nicole Levins.

 

 

The day we first went for ice skating at Sunway Pyramid. I had so much fun, even falling down on the ice over and over again. Because it was with you. So much of fun. 

 

 

Colours of Malaysia Day, a few of our friends teamed up to wear traditional clothes and I wore my favourite pink baju kebaya. After college ended, we sat outside of library and you rested your head on my lap. And you looked for the flower of my shoe that came off, and also the time when Ginny had a misunderstanding about us breaking up. Silly. 

 

Couldn't really remember what was this picture about anymore. Teehee, but Umme and Shans was posing the heart shape around us. And yes I was sitting on your lap. Sure missed that!

 

 

One of the many Saturdays I went back college to work on my Advertising assignment with my girls. And this was one day before our 3rd monthlysary. You gave me a piece of hand-made envelope sealed with your written vows. Couldn't stop rereading em'!

Shot at Chick Roast Shop, or something like that, teehee.

 

 

The day I had my Malaysian Studies presentation and I wore my NS shirt. I was freaking out for not preparing my presentation and you gave me support that I was gonna do well!

Shot at Rock Cafe.

 

 

And this was during our Bersih Culture presentation! We all wore yellow in conjunction with the theme colour (Y) Shot at Pappa Rich.

 

On Taylor Swift's Birthday, we went out for the very very first time with my high school girls. It was a movie marathon day, Breaking Dawn and Perks of Being A Wallflower! Couple seat was just perfect, cuddling all up with you :)

Shot at Centre Court, Mid Valley.

 

That sure was nice going through all those pictures and relieving happy times that lie behind each and everyone of them. More to come, more to come!

 

I miss you baby.

 

Signing off, forever your lil sunshine :)

 

"Here I am staring at your perfection, in my arms, so beautiful ..."