又爱又恨。

You keep coming back to me when I'm already at the edge of letting go and giving up.

Just when I felt like giving up on us, you turned around and gave me one last touch. That made everything felt better, and even then my eyes got wetter. So confused when I asked if you love me, but I don't wanna seemed so weak. - California King Bed, Rihanna.

But. After the temporary happiness, there you go again, pushing me down off the cliff, letting me down. And I had to build up my armor once again.