I've gone out of balance between work and play. Therefore, regretfully I needed to give up on one of the activities I've enjoyed so much, as I couldn't go for dancing lessons, this is the only chance I get to perform dancing. Cheerleaders. Cheerleading. I've got an enough experience throughout this two years. And I guess, for the sake of mine, I had to give up. Sighed. Too bad I'm not a genius. I am felt terribly sorry to my seniors, that I made them disappointed. But I'm sure the other girls can handle it well! Since I joined Green House Cheerleading, I've got, a responsiblility to help the house and gain victory. Two years ago, we didn't manage to. This year, we didn't do. I wanted to do so, the coming year. But I don't have the strength and ability. Cause, once again, I'm not a genius. So yeah, gotta let go!
Speaking on letting go...
The wound is pretty much healed! And, I managed to delete all the messages and pictures saved in my phone. It was heartaching. True. It was tough, but not as tough as I imagined it would be.
Delete this message? Yes
Delete this photo? Yes
It only took like 5 minutes, but I've dragged for this about 2 months to do it. Silly me. Now I still have lots to clean up of those saved in my laptop. And the gifts, little notes and letters, I'm still planning on how to deal with them.
I've sealed our past memories. No more of them, and I will be happier, and I will get to begin a new life.
With who? I don't know, we'll figure out soon ;)
He texted me so unusually and randomly. What r u doing?
I don't feel my heart racing anymore. And the feeling, I'm very sure, is just plain friendship. And nothing more already.
Plus whenever I hear my phone beep, I'm craving for another person's message.
We just threw the blame back and forth, we treated love like a sport.
The final blow hit so low, I'm still on the ground. - Angels Cry, Mariah Carey & Ne-Yo.
Oh well, just so you don't know. My school is currently having a monthly TEST. Why am I emphasizing on the word - test? Because people seemed to have misunderstand it as an EXAMINATION.
Alright, fine. I'm just giving myself a stupid excuse. Cause I didn't study seriously! I have to stop this tidak-apa behaviour. The coming EXAMINATION is a huge one, and I cannot - I don't want to imagine that I would see - 5A11 in my report card.
Ok. Gotta run, two more days of test - Chemistry and Physics. Then will start another hectic month. Till then, good bye and have a nice day!
:)
