Yesterday night was like a horrible nightmare disaster. But everything is because of only one reason, my bad, my fault.
Sister and I were still talking although the lights were off and it's over midnight (well, we don't care.) We were lying on the bed, laughing hard. Then, I needed the torch light for some reasons. I called her to switch on the light and throw it to me. I called her to throw on the blanket, but guess what? She did not wear her specs, her vision is kind of blur and she threw just like that.
And it hitted me, I was like oh-damn-mother-fucking-wthella. It almost hitted my eyes, it's a relief it did not. It hitted near to my left eye and now there is a lil scar, not very easy to be notice but very easy to make me scream due to painfulness. I was biting my lips and tears dropped down when the torch light hitted me. That kind of pain is is, totally indescribable. No one knows the pain, but only I suffer.
Dad heard the sound of the torch light dropped down to the floor and my squeaky scream. He came over to our bedroom and check on us. He asked what happened. I don't know what was on my mind, but I lied to him that the clock dropped to the floor, that's all. Dad buy my act and believed in my lies, and just said goodnight.
After that, I went to the toilet kept on mumbling and check on my face. It seriously hurt even though I just wipe my face with the towel. I release my anger by throwing the torch light back to my sister, but I did not plan to hit her. For the whole process, she did not said anything, anything at all. But just looked at me with her big innocent eyes or closing her eyes, pretending to be asleep.
Alright fine, since I'm the one who cause this, so I ain't gonna tell parents about it. I can only blame that lady luck did not smile on me :/
Now, the happy thing comes. I've changed my blog's song, I Will Be by Avril Lavigne. There are three version all together, orginal one is sang by Leona Lewis, second one is the one in my blog and one more is their duet. Alright, now lyrics below :
There's nothing
I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go
Bridge:
I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go
Chorus:
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
Verse 2:
I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me
Bridge:
And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go
{Chorus}
Ending bridge:
Cause without you I cant sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah
And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need
Chorus:
And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life), I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
Chorus:
I will be (I'll be), all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
