I feel so damn fcuking guilty now, thinking about what happened a few hours ago. This is what happened :
It was raining very heavily after school. I walked alone towards the bridge and I met him and his friend outside our school. I was thinking what should I do, he and his friend is walking in the rain while I'm holding the umbrella in my hand. Maybe he can read my mind, before I wanted to share my umbrella with him, he opened his mouth and said, "Regina, you share with him your umbrella, he's having fever." I was like okay, kept thinking that he's such a caring person, such a good friend!
And then as we continued walking, two girls dropped their belongings on the road. He even stopped and helped them to pick up their things in the rain. He called me to go first. Without thinking, I walked away. Then when I left them, I kept on thinking, "Why I don't stop and help them? Why?!" I felt so damn guitly, he's such a good guy, really. ): I really feel so damn fcuking bad. I never had this kind of feeling before. Why I don't help them?! I hate myself.
Mr. A-Z, you are way better than my X.
