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I know, it's me. It wasn't your fault, because I knew I was the one who made you not believing in me anymore. But, I can't believe you said it. And it really hurted me. I was biting my lips, trying to hold on my tears, but my tears are rolling down just like falling stars. I said nothing, I'm fine, obviously it was a lie. That time I hope you can say something to comfort me, but nothing came out. Now, I don't know, I really don't know should I choose back to be like the past ? Or maybe our postition right now, like this is better ?

I was holding on to ,

my smiley pillow, crying.